I know this is a rather obscure play to be updating about my personal life, but I feel the need to get it out somehow, and I'm not ready to announce it to my Facebook yet... So... I have been denied Florida residency for tuition purposes, meaning I cannot afford to pay for college and am forced to drop out.
I thought I had a plan and direction in my life, but now, I honestly have no clue what is going to happen. I'm really just lost right now. I don't know what I'm going to do, nothing seems certain anymore and I guess I'm just really nervous about my future. I know plans can never have a guarantee, but I feel like they give me a false sense of security which I find very comforting.
Anyway, for right now, I'm just going to work and use my free time to finally begin writing some scripts and work more on my art. I'm going to try learning how to paint and I also plan to work on writing a movie. Maybe this will work out for the better... I guess I need to adjust to this major change. It's been really hard, for over a year I've been working hard because all I wanted to do was go to school, and... it's really hard to accept the fact that I can't do that and that I may not get to...
I'll be honest and say that I'm not ready to start planning a new strategy. I worked so hard to try and be approved this time and I feel way too stressed and overwhelmed to try thinking about doing it again or trying to move schools at the moment. I just need some help getting used to a different life style and feeling less nervous about not going to school.